亢奋第一季

曾经的我 幸福满足I was once happy, content,徜徉在只属于我的羊水之中sloshing around in my own private, primordial pool.结果有一天 由于不可抗拒的因素Then one day, for reasons beyond my control,我母亲莱丝丽的子宫I was repeatedly crushed...一次又一次对我残忍地施加压力over and over by the cruel cervix of my mother, Leslie.我顽强地抵抗了 却终敌不过大自然I put up a good fight, but I lost,这是我人生第一次败仗 之后更是节节败退我厌弃所有人 除了你I hate everyone else in the world but you.茱尔丝 你自残吗And, Jules, do you self-injure?事实上 茱尔丝讨厌自己The truth was, Jules hated herself.她讨厌自己大脑的运作方式She hated how her brain worked...她的大脑会因一个想法而卡住the way it would get stuck on a thought,从而噎到自己like choking.专注于当下All right. Keep present.大脑会陷入无尽的循环And it would just play on an infinite loop,直到她停止思考until she couldn't think无法呼吸 濒临死亡or breathe or stand to be alive.克服并非易事 茱尔丝This is hard, Jules.你一定可以挺过去You're going to get through it, okay?但她不仅讨厌自己的大脑She didn't just hate her brain, though.她还讨厌自己的身体 但不是每个部位都讨厌She hated her body, not every part,只讨厌肩膀 手臂just her shoulders, and her arms,双手and her hands.还有胸部 腹部 大腿Also her chest, her stomach, her thighs.她最讨厌膝盖了Her knees were the worst.还很讨厌脚踝和肥大的双脚Plus her ankles, and her big, fucking, stupid feet.她讨厌自己的人生 并非因为过得不好She hated her life, not because it was bad,而是因为 痛恨自己的大脑和身体之人but because when you hate your brain and your body,很难享受人生每当她被虐得很惨时...And whenever anything got too uncomfortable...茱尔丝就假装自己灵魂出窍Jules would just imagine that she wasn't really herself,她其实在旁观别人的生活and this wasn't really her life.她只是虚构作品中的一个虚构人物She was just a character in a book or a movie or a show.一切都是假象 即便是真 又能如何呢That none of it was real, and if it was, how did it matter?这具身体本就不属于她It's not like her body ever really belonged to her in the first place.我没有特别喜欢的事情There's nothing I'm really passionate about.没有非要做或说的事You know, like, I'm not dying to say or do anything, really.每次我向大家坦露心迹And every time I admit that to people,他们都会觉得这样很可悲 但是...they're like, "Oh, my gosh, that's so sad." But...我觉得多数人都是如此I think that's the case for most people.我妈是如此You know? Like, when I look at my mom or...我同学也是如此like, the kids at my school--从他们社交媒体上的动态就能看出来like, their profiles or their posts and their Tumblr rants...大家也都过得稀里糊涂 迷茫无助you realize they're all just fucked up, too... and lost.只是他们都得掩饰真相...They just have a reason to mask it...为了不让家人担忧whether it be, like, their, their families拴住男友 博取关注or their boyfriends or their hashtag activism.他们都只是借助表面的光鲜亮丽And they're just reaching for something-粉饰人生的虚无 -小茹...- to make it all seem meaningfu麦迪从小就很了解自己Maddy knew who she was from a very early age.从麦迪记事以来 她就是万人迷For as long as Maddy could remember, everybody loved her.她不知自己为何受欢迎She never knew exactly what it was.她只知道自己很特殊She just knew that she had something special,气质迷幻朦胧something intangible,魅力无人能及something immeasurable.她因此充满自信And it gave her confidence她也是因此热爱选美That's why she loved pageantry,因为冠军不必容貌倾城 高挑精干because you didn't have to be the prettiest or the tallest也不必金发碧眼 肤如凝脂or the blondest or the whitest.自信闪耀就够了You just had to have fucking confidence.嘉年华当晚 和卢克·卡斯滕打炮时So the night of the carnival, while fucking Luke Kasten,凯特顿悟了Kat had an epiphany.她居然上了卢克·卡斯滕She was fucking Luke Kasten,那他妈可是卢克·卡斯滕啊Luke motherfucking Kasten.没上过东高的人可能不知道...And for those of you who didn't go to East Highland...卢克·卡斯滕可是男神Luke Kasten was a fucking god.他毕业多年 可学校里依然有他的传说I mean, he graduated years ago and people still talk about him.他有我见过最大的鸡鸡He has the biggest dick I've ever seen,他上我时 我一直盯着他看and I was looking at him while he was fucking me.他射精时I could see his face scrunching up我看到他的脸皱成一团when he was coming all over my stomach,我突然就顿悟了and I had this, like, realization, you know, like, this epiphany.无论这个人有多酷帅性感That no matter how cool, or, or sexy不论他在你眼中有多聪明or, or smart you think a guy is,其实都卑微渺小得可悲可怜they're actually just fucking pathetic.我一直试图减弱自己的存在感my whole life, all I've tried to do is to take up less space.企图避开那帮男人Try to hide from guys, like, who might, like,因为我经过时 他们会对朋友悄悄吐槽whisper to their friend under their breath as I walked by.我这一生I've spent my whole life都在担心大家会发现我是个胖妞afraid people were gonna find out that I was fat.但说实话 根本没人在意But honestly, who gives a shit?无所畏惧的胖女孩所向披靡There's nothing more powerful than a fat girl who doesn't give a fuck.高中的情谊转瞬即逝 并非天长地久Nothing in high school lasts forever.你该见见她You should meet her.Are you kidding me?你被罚下了You're out of the game.冲动就会输球You get emotional, you lose.动怒就会输球You get angry, you lose.-爸 他说我是... -无关紧要- Dad, he called me-- - I don't give a good goddamn.你觉得他为什么偏偏说你呢Why do you think he's talking to you in the first place?-因为他... -因为他想激怒你- Because he-- - Because he's trying to get a rise out of you.扰乱你的思绪 让你分心Trying to make you upset, lose focus.他在挑战你的底线 这就是生存法则That's his game. That's the world's game.他们不断逼你They want to push on you,逗弄你 考验你的极限Poke on you, see exactly how much you can take.极限会决定你能走多远And how much you can take is what will ultimately define you.因为应对之道可以衡量人的品性Because the measure of a man is in how he reacts.我该如何应对How am I supposed to react?将自己的所有情绪By taking everything you feel,挫败感 愤怒 狂暴all your frustrations, your anger, your rage,统统收起you bottle it up,守住本心you take your position,当情绪累积至顶峰and when that snap comes,将其化作喷薄而出的动力you let it explode.她几乎每次都会心软答应And she almost always said yes.尽管她很不情愿 也会照做Even though it didn't always make her feel good.她知道 多数男生跟她分手后And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them,都会散播她的性爱视频和裸照would always share those photos or videos.她刚发现时 恐慌心悸The first time she found out, she had a panic attack,她甚至想吞扑热息痛自杀and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol.但最终打消了自杀的念头But she didn't.因为大家顶多言语上对她讽刺挖苦Because, I mean, what's the worst thing anybody could say to her?无非就是嘲笑她给渣男口交而已That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it?而且 她觉得等到毕业求职那会儿And she figured by the time she was out of college and looking for a job,绝大多数人都有过裸照的黑历史了99 percent of the population would have leaked nudes, anyway.一想到要站起来The thought of having to stand up,移动35英尺 每走一步要调动172块肌肉exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet,就为了坐在冰凉的陶瓷坐便器上just so I can sit on cold porcelain日复一日地排出体内毒素and piss out toxins over and over again for the rest of my life我就觉得人生是一个漫长且磨人的玩笑makes the whole concept of living feel like one long, sadistic joke.但抑郁最磨人的一点是But the absolute worst part of depression你明知自己抑郁了is that even though you know you're depressed,却依然无可救药地越陷越深you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse抑郁的另一症状就是The other thing about depression is让人丧失时间概念it kind of collapses time.突然之间 全部记忆混杂交织Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together无穷无尽 令人窒息to create one endless and suffocating loop.抑郁后 人会试图回想愉悦的瞬间So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy.但大脑会一点点蚕食欣快的回忆But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy.最终And eventually,脑中仅剩人生中沉闷压抑的记忆all you can think about is how life has always been this way.人就会日渐消沉And will only continue to be this way.曾经有个心理医生说 我压抑的状态会起起落落I had a therapist once who said that these states will wax and wane.我妈因此松了一口气Which gave my mother relief,因为就算我犯病了because it meant that in the bad times,总也会好起来there would be good times.但她也因此焦灼难安But it also gave her anxiety因为就算我一时没事because it meant that in the good times,总也有抑郁发作的一天there would be bad times.我一直很不解It always confused me,因为我不懂"起落"的意思because I didn't really know what it meant.但听起来比我自己的形容更让人安心But it did sound a lot calmer than the way I would describe it.我得继续服药There you go. How you feel? Okay?我知道你现在很低落 宝贝I know you're feeling low right now, baby.但你没有故态复萌 说明你的症状有所缓解But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better.没错It does.一定是这样It does.当然了 我之后才领悟到Granted, I didn't realize until later"起起落落"的真正含义what waxing and waning implied.抑郁无法根除 会反复发作That these feelings were fixed and constant我的余生都将与抑郁作伴and would never end for the rest of my life.我住院观察了三天And kept me there for three days.其实住院可好了It was actually really nice.我超喜欢医院I love hospitals.要是余生都能在医院度过 我绝对没意见If I could spend the rest of my life in a hospital, I would.因为住院时Because when you're in a hospital,可以做个米虫you have zero responsibilities.医护人员会保证你吃饱睡好 身体棒棒They make sure you eat, sleep, stay hydrated,如遇不测 医生总能及时出现and if anything bad happens, there's always a doctor nearby.谢谢Thank you.发生大规模枪击案时 待在医院最明智了It's also the best place to be in the event of a mass shooting,只要外科医生没死光光就行unless the gunman kills all the surgeons.关键是 我在医院无忧无虑The point is, I had zero anxiety.我昨晚写信时and as I sat down last night to write it,忍不住回想你出生那天的场景I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born.我第一次将你抱入臂弯Holding you in my arms for the first time,怜爱地看着你looking down at you,看着你可爱动人的小脸your sweet, beautiful face...我这辈子从未如此充满爱意 欢欣愉悦I had never felt so much love and joy in my entire life.于是我想到...And I thought that...若是那一刻 有人能提醒我该多好what if in that moment I heard a voice,通晓万物的人生旁白对我低语some omniscient narrator who said,"接下来将会如此""Here's what's going to happen."你的女儿将会风趣幽默 聪明伶俐 开朗大方""Your daughter is gonna be funny, and smart, and outgoing,"她的灵气从小便会显现"You'll see it instantly, from a young age.""她将会魅力四射 广交朋友""She'll be charismatic and make friends easily.""她将会温柔善良 心思细腻""She'll be kind and sensitive."细腻到敏感""Maybe too sensitive."她不会是个乖乖女""She won't be an easy child."她会很叛逆"She'll struggle.""因此 你将很难看懂她""And in turn, you'll struggle to understand her.""你将跟不上她的思维""To understand what's going on inside of her head."无法理解那些难以摆脱的梦魇""The night terrors that can't be interrupted."很多时候 晚饭后""The times after dinner where"她会坐在餐桌旁""She'll just sit at the kitchen table"一遍遍数着天花板砖的数量and count the tiles over and over,"数到自己上气不接下气""Until she hyperventilates."你会用尽全力拥她入怀 安慰她""To fight to hold her in your arms, to tell her it's okay.""你们将难以平静 她会摔打东西 大吼大叫""To calm down. The kicking. The screaming."她会害怕受伤""The anxiety of being harmed."她会日夜煎熬""The transitions from day to night,"从家中到学校 每顿饭皆是如此""From home to school, from meal to meal."她会担心失去父母和妹妹"Of losing her mother or father or little sister.""她害怕会孤苦伶仃"- "Of being alone."我很喜欢她I really like her."她会恐慌发作 情绪波动 迷惑不解 精神分裂""The panic attacks, mood swings, confusion, disorganization"她会愤怒狂躁""And all that rage."不仅生你的气 也会恼恨自己""Not just at you, but at herself."最煎熬的是...""And the tough part i"她无法自救 而你也将束手无策""you'll feel as helpless to help her as she does herself.""你将犯下大大小小的错误""You'll make mistakes. Small ones and big ones."你会慌忙求助 病急乱投医""You'll look for help from people who aren't helpful."你求助之人或许根本不了解情况""Or who don't actually understand what's happening.""内疚感将因此伴你终生""And the guilt will never leave you.""但若你保持镇定 温柔耐心""But if you remain calm and patient,"若你能仔细聆听""If you listen closely,"你便能渐渐理解她""理解她为何重复地数了一遍又一遍""The counting, the repetition,"理解她对于对称的执着""the need for symmetry."若你睡前亲吻了她的左脸""That if you kiss her left cheek before bed,"一定也要亲吻她的右脸""You have to kiss her right cheek."还有额头 下巴""And her forehead. Then her chin."因为这样才平衡稳定""That it's about balance, stability."这样她才能疏导情绪 捋顺思绪""The need to organize her feelings and thoughts, so..."这样她才能平静下来"she can breathe easier.""你将得到片刻的喘息""And there will be moments of relief,"你们俩都能松一口气""In her and in you."这些时刻平静安宁 顺心满足""Moments that feel so normal, and calm, and rewarding that..."你会希望平淡的幸福能够天长地久""You'll find yourself praying they last forever."可她还小""Even though she's only a child,"糟心事还在后面呢"And all the hard parts have yet to even come."16岁时""And at the age of 16,"她会吸毒过量""She'll overdose,"昏迷四天""Spend four days in a coma,"生死未卜""And you won't know if she'll live or die."但等她醒来""But when she wakes up,"她会有机会戒毒""She'll be given the opportunity to get clean,"改过自新""To become a different person,"完善自己""A better person."但有一点你无能为力""Here's the toughest part."不论你怎么说 怎么做 怎么想""No matter what you say, or do, or wish,"决定权都在她手中""The decision will be all hers."你只能心怀希望""And all you can do is hope"希望她能给自己一个重新来过的机会"凯特Kat.万一现在就是我们人生的高光时刻呢What if these are, like, the big moments in life?我妈总说Like, my mom always talks about高中是她人生的里程碑式高光时刻how high school was like this big, monumental part of her life.可她都半老徐娘了 居然还对高中念念不忘But I cannot imagine being 40 and looking back at this, like, "Wow."因为多数人在高中达到了人生巅峰Yeah, but that's because most people peak in high school.我肯定还没达到巅峰...I definitely haven't peaked, so...我感觉自己还没长大呢I feel like I'm not even a person yet.我也就攀登到巅峰的四分之一吧Yeah, I'm definitely at, like, 25 percent peakness.我好像达到巅峰了I feel like I'm at a hundred.但我还能升得更高But I can definitely get to 150.讲真 我都没想到自己能撑到现在Honestly, I never thought I'd make it this far.什么意思What do you mean?我总是提心吊胆 惶惶不安I don't know. I just always had, like, this overwhelming anxiety我总觉得一定会出事that something bad would happen.说实话 去年夏天In all fairness, last summer,我有三周一直以为你死了there were, like, three weeks where I thought you were dead.

看剧的时候，最大的感慨是，这样的高中生，跟我们当年是如此的不同，又是如此的相同。

不同的是吸毒、滥交、同性恋、性交易.......，尺度大到难以想象，让人不禁想问普通的高中生真的可以这样吗？

相同的是青春的狂乱、迷惘、欢乐、痛苦........，内心的世界几乎并没有差别，而且觉得自己就是一切。

小芸和茱儿骑着自行车在深夜街头奔驰，在溜冰场手拉手飞舞，像极了当年我和老凡，青春的记忆几乎都定格在那些和她一起疯玩的瞬间。

几乎什么都不在乎，也忘了时间。

喜欢小芸，又帅又美，疯得有理，傻得有趣，不羁得恰到好处，正适合做我这种普通女生的偶像。

想念老凡，和小芸一样的高个子大长腿，一样的愣头青。

如果可以回到从前，我会努力做一个更有趣的伙伴，让自己美一点酷一点，毕竟青春没有第二次。

以前看不下去现在突然觉得很好看？

相信millenniums can relate，很像《Generation Why》里唱的：We are the helpless，selfish，one of a kind，worthless，cursed with too much time，millennium kids that all wanna die，walking in the street with no light inside our eyes

Generation Why8.8Conan Gray / 2018很像豆瓣评论里说的第一世界青春伤痛有木有...颓颓的赞达亚兜帽一戴也太爱了吧！

一团糟的生活，和jules说不清道不明的爱...典型i人主动不起来，其实她远没有其他teens来得疯，也不磕离谱的东西。。

每一个小的烦躁心碎颓废时刻都想逃进💊里，每一次看到💊都在抵抗诱惑。

想逃走但是挂念妈妈和妹妹，呜呜好心疼。

jules就像一轮小太阳，每天换漂亮眼妆，也是这群人里唯一的乐天派了，虽然其实并没对任何人open up。

kat也不再是美剧女孩团体里典型的fat funny friend（有一首同名歌写的特别好但是豆瓣没有条目...）了，好爱kat女王的成长，狠狠自信，从只有sex到学会去爱，好棒！

其实整部剧看下来感觉就是💊和pron都太Accessable了，在非常时期太具诱惑，不然其实颓个两天要么宿醉一晚可能也过去了😂但也没有说像国内初高中这样压抑着就很好，毕竟rue和jules也算是互相救赎了，relationship也很重要吧...以及人总也要发泄。

让我觉得最可怕的还是nate这种人，暴力倾向、跟踪狂、威胁要挟...简直后背一凉求你maddy离开他吧，他和他爸都是死变态啊。。

结尾rue跟出去confront他的时候觉得rue帅极了！！

Cassie也求你离开巨婴mckay吧，讨好型人格fall for every guy简直太让人心疼，去堕胎也是给人凉飕飕的感觉。

所以豆瓣简介到底在说什么？

谁死了？？？

看完都不知道是谁死了。。。

I literally finished watching this within 2 nightscuz this is so fking euphoriantbasically this is mainly talking about sex and drugs but you just cannot feel any vulgarityall of these elements were expressed in a fantastic wayI rlly love those characters modeling omg especially for those girls i feel im like super obsessed with jules and those ‘bitches’and I rlly love every narration said by rue at the beginning of every episode that everyone’s stories are extremely interesting and I rlly like to explore the real background experiences behind their traitsthe scriptwriter is so talented that he can make rich personalities and plots lighting costumes and sounds are fabulous(and also makeup and filming techniquesthere are lotta songs i want to listen thousands of timesdirector is a genius that I like the actors he chose such as nate maddy cassie...(god actually all of themwhen kate got changed wow that’s amazing bro she seemed so confident I feel touched when i watch their relationships i think all of those are real and kinda moved when they said they love each other cuz i believe that’s true that’s the fruit of sexfamilies' affection is serious mr jacobs is such a typical man( btw nate is so so so handsome i also like fetz and that kid they are veeeery cooooolin conclusion i love all the stuff on this season let’s go season 2!!!!it’s quite funny that i just noticed what i wrote down there 2 years ago and it’s like i felt terrifying when i first saw this i was 14 and i had never seen any tv show like this so once i watched like 10 min then i quit im so sryps the last episode is perfect that everything is the best and there’s a ball scene that im gonna going to the senior school ball today yahoo

This is a truly perplexing TV series. I am uncertain about the familial relationships, such as who is a sister to whom, or they are simply friends who are close enough to reside together for an extended period. Additionally, the scenes are frequently edited out. I noticed on the website that there are numerous dick scenes, but none were included in the version I viewed.The portrayal of the rebellious youth among American high school students is vividly captured in this series. Children who are deeply involved in drugs, sex, and violence are no different from those who are engrossed in fundamental science studies. This is because both groups are deemed unproductive for future societal progress.I believe that Nate's father represents an ideal dominant daddy figure for the gay community.Rue's struggle to overcome drug addiction is a commendable narrative.The introduction found on most Chinese websites is misleading. They claim that a child has passed away and that others are overcoming their grief. In reality, no one has died.

HBO制作人 Francesca Orsi约导演Levinson谈制作初衷的时候，聊到彼此年轻时候的生活，以及人们以为正确的生活，然后Francesca说，我们就写这个。

Zendaya也在采访中表示，Rue基本就是导演本人年轻时候的真实写照，她在表演中有什么不明白的都会找他商量。

Hunter Schafer和Jules的相似度更是直接吸引她走上演员道路、甚至亲自写了特别篇第二集的原因。

也就是说，创作者不仅想要在角色身上注入自己的一部分，还想要通过群像的塑造反映Z时代的面貌，让观众和故事产生链接，这样的野心给《亢奋》打下了写实的基调。

但在创作形式上导演非但并不追求写实，还有意和现实之间保持着距离。

首先，角色们所在的城市是虚构的，名字叫做East Highland，我不知道我是不是过度解读，但我听到这个名字之后，怀疑和伊甸园有关。

《圣经》记载伊甸园在东方，有四条河从伊甸流出滋润园子。

这四条河分别是比逊河、基训河、底格里斯河和幼发拉底河。

其次，夏娃和伊甸园的关系，和电视剧中角色们和East Highland的关系也有对应之处。

留在伊甸园中，还是离开，是两者共同探讨的话题。

夏娃在蛇的诱导下被上帝驱逐出去，Euphoria中多个角色多次表示East Highland是一切罪恶发酵的地点，Jac诱奸的时候说，你可以选择离开，也可以选择和我一样留在这个镇子，慢慢烂掉，Nate也说，Jules是一个与众不同的人，她终究会离开这里，有所成就，而最后Jules坐上了离开East Highland的火车。

Rue同她一同前往，但却在临行前被一种莫名的恐惧和留恋撅住，留在原地，仿佛East Highland是一片凭空虚构出来的高地，只要离开这里，就会有无限的希望，但也有无限的危机。

编剧通过角色们的侧面叙述，将故事的主要发生地East Highland构建成了一个与世隔绝的问题伊甸园。

其次，叙述视角是第三人称全知视角，意思就是叙事者知道所有秘密，但是通常来说，这种情况下叙述者本人是隐身的，是作者，或者是一个不会出现的人。

但奇怪的是，《亢奋》中，叙事者本人也是故事中的角色之一，就好像Rue这个角色天天像一个监控摄像头一样安装在别人的家里。

这显然是不可能的。

所以视角的真实性在《亢奋》中其实并不重要，它重在功能性，完成群像心里剖析的任务就大功告成。

同时，编剧这样做的用意，我猜测，也是为了保留East Highland伊甸园与世隔绝的特征，他不希望像《绝望主妇》一样有一个并不住在East Highland的外来者侵入叙事当中，最大程度地保留了这个小镇的独立性、神秘感。

加上Rue是一个毒瘾少女，我曾经在一个混剪视频的评论区读到过一条评论，他说他终于知道为什么剧情那么抓马了，因为这都是Rue的叙述，而Rue可是大部分时间都在幻觉里的少女，她的叙事自然也给故事平添了不可靠的色彩。

第三，德国表现主义风格的打光、色彩和镜头运动。

色彩的设计中我们可以看到大量高饱和度荧光色的使用，用绿色和黄色来展示压抑感，用紫色和蓝色来展示狂欢的状态，逆光的光束落到演员的头部和双肩，可以使演员从舞台背景中突显出来，表现物体或人物的剪影效果。

而且现场一定使用了大量的油雾和电费来折射不同色彩的光线。

导演大费周章地将整部作品包裹在一场漫长的派对之中，始终和拥有正常日照和白炽灯照明的低饱和现实生活保持着距离。

而且，摄像头的存在感很强， 大量的摇镜头和跟踪镜头被用来表现时间的流动以及人际关系，（也因此被诟病像MV），这样一来，和尽可能隐去摄像机存在感的现实主义同样也是保持了距离。

创作者有意告诉你这是经过剪辑的，经过选择的结果。

第四，妆造设计。

剧中人物经常扮着仿佛要走Met Gala的非现实妆造，尤其是前期糖果色的Jules被誉为“行走的眼影盘”，在剧外被粉丝们争相模仿。

第五，音乐。

和纪实作品中尽可能保留原声的尝试不同的是，有的集数，光是一集里面就是20多首歌曲。

制作人Labrinth表示，当你回顾自己的青少年时代时，会感觉那是半魔幻、半疯狂和半精神错乱的时代。

我想让音乐给人这些感觉。

总而言之，《亢奋》利用上述种种手段，力图将East Highland划成一座孤岛。

有什么好处呢？

在我看来，它首先提高了观众对情节合理性的容忍度，但更为重要的是，它使得故事中的角色、主题、情节都蒙上了一层符号化的色彩，它想要的是通过每一个标志性的角色来抽象出一种社会现状的典型。

重要的不是Rue, 是drug addiction。

重要的不是Jules，是跨性别者。

不是Cassie，是父亲母亲的缺席和迷茫的性生活。

不是Nate，是恐同深柜、父子关系。

不是Kat, 是形体羞耻和网络性探索，以及迷茫而饥渴的嫖客，etc. 《亢奋》中的每一个角色，都被有意塑造成一个群体的icon，供观众进行安迪·沃霍尔式的复制，打造成一种文化现象。

所以我认为比起私人性，《亢奋》更追求公共性，它原本的意图就是邀请公众在East Highland这个因为虚构而安全，因为虚构而独立成一个icon的镇子中找到一个同自己相似的角色，参与话题的讨论，寻找情绪的抚慰。

想到这里脑海中浮现的是海明威在《流动的盛宴》里面经常被漏掉的一段话，“我想到斯泰因小姐和舍伍德·安德森以及与自我中心和思想上的懒散相对的自我约束，我想到是谁在说谁是迷惘的一代呢？

接着当我走近丁香园咖啡馆时，灯光正照在我的老朋友内伊元帅的雕像上，他拔出了指挥刀，树木的阴影洒落在这青铜雕像上，他孤零零地站在那儿，背后没有一个人，而滑铁卢一役他打得一败涂地。

我想起所有的一代代人都让一些事情给搞得迷惘了，历来如此，今后也将永远如此。

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*******EP7feedback*******像是你的一生都挤在这个最低点上//像是你无法逃脱无法清醒无法挣扎//像是你不再是你//像是身体离你越来越远直到你只能在水面下看见模糊的黑色的阳光奇怪的是，我们常以为快乐不会长久，却坚信沮丧总是常态。

每个人都在二十左右的关头突地陷了下去，跌进一缎黑色、紫色、闪闪发光的天鹅绒，无视自己就快要淹死的种种迹象。

你记得自己曾经有过无比快乐的时光，也记得自己经历了某个转变而进入了这个该死的阶段。

但快乐过了保质期就变成了绝经的雌性，躲在你后脑勺生疼。

最可怕的是你不再相信一切都会变好——因为你太清楚那些成年生物的可悲之处——在一个对自己来说最有说服力的年纪——开始鄙弃梦想和希望——喜欢上说“不过是”“无所谓”“即使也”——整个念头都像是尿液里回流的毒素。

整个人生竟然都是青春期的后遗症。

有时候，你只要说服自己从卧室走到卫生间。

“Every Single Night” ——Fiona Apple

知道男主和赞达亚在一起后，我又开始磕起了natejules这一对。

于是重新看了一次这两的cut。

发现我看第一遍的时候有多不认真？？？

其他人物线索简单明了，最吸引人的一对真的是奈朱了。

能够确定的是他俩内心深处真的是相互吸引但又折磨的狗血剧情。

说说第一季最后一集，1.nate忽然对他爹发火的原因。

那盘光碟，推测内容是他爹在旅店和jules的那段，哦天阿，自己喜欢心爱的姑娘被老爹拱了。

2.Mandy和nate那场床戏，nate无法那啥，思绪混乱的他脑海里都是光碟内容画面吧，以及他越正视自己是基佬，那么就越对女人没了兴趣吗？

3.Mandy走时把那盘光碟拿走了。

哦哦，知道秘密的她在下一季会怎么威胁nate阿，想想都期待。

4.jules在夜店的幻象都是nate，这感情上压抑得很深阿。

第二季走向如何阿阿。

nate又如何出柜呢？

真的，很期待这一对

亢奋 第一季 (2019)8.22019 / 美国 / 剧情 悬疑 / 萨姆·莱文森 奥古斯丁·弗里泽尔 詹妮弗·莫里森 / 赞达亚 亨特·莎弗

在某些人身上总有一些难以理解的存在，解释不了，解决不了。

它使你与此世格格不入，活的不知所谓。

就想芸不想再无滋无味的活，而沉迷于毒品带来的极致的快了。

不过，这种快了的代价太大，是有爱的亲朋围绕的芸所承担不起的。

芸虽然活的艰难无味，但她还有亲人与她联系着这个世界。

幸运的是芸遇到了小茹，一个可以带给彼此快乐的特殊存在。

与毒品虚幻的快乐相比，芸是更想抓住小茹的，小茹之于芸就是存于此世的又一立足点。

芸站在空荡荡的街道中时，相信很多人都深有感触。

孤独无助，即使知道不是孤单一人，也还是无法摆脱那种暗夜奖至，陷于黑暗的恐惧迷茫。

而小茹就是将她从暗夜中唤醒的一束光，明亮耀眼，而小芸甘愿做一个飞蛾，在这段情爱中奋不顾身。

小茹是真的像一束光，她无视于身上的黑暗，一直微笑。

小茹每次出场，都能很自然的抓住所有人的目光。

作为一个少数的存在，小茹从不逃避，自信的穿梭于校园与小镇。

她还有些天真，天真的去追寻自己的爱情，这也是小茹的可爱之处。

我们不需要看破一切之后的淡然或者说是消极。

我们需要的是，在被外界所伤之后，更要活的漂亮。

这部剧中的其他人物，比如内特，凯西，吉雅等都很成功。

很值得看的是剧尾演员对自己角色和剧的解析，总之，值得一看。

中产阶级的高中生，天天都聚会趴体，啪啪啪，沉迷，大麻，攀比，沉醉，我倒真觉得咱们的青春高考还是挺正能量的，起码是拼搏进取积极的读过有意义的几年，是的，我就是觉得人活着还是要积极乐观对待人生要好点。

不喜勿喷。

还有他们是不是生活条件太好了。。。。

就那样。。。

.............................................................可能我更喜欢《羞耻》那样的青春剧